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Eeman-The high days and the low days

Salam alykum warahmatullah,

When Christians turn over a new leaf spiritually, they call it becoming ‘born again’. I’m not sure if Muslims have a name for it but we could call it reverting to Islam in a way. When you’ve just taken this step and made the vows and promises to yourself and your Lord, you are high in the spirit. You are on top of the world. You are invincible, untouchable; like – Shaytan don’t even think even about it! This lasts for a while depending on how active you are in your deeds – reading the Quran, listening to lectures, visiting the sick, helping the needy, observing salat with patience and concentration, tahajjud, etc.

Then all of a sudden you notice you’re feeling distant. You are no longer as active as you were just a few months ago (or even weeks). Your heart doesn’t feel as soft, you feel God is not ‘talking’ to you as much as before. You start wondering what happened; where you went wrong. Don’t worry, you’re not alone. From what I’ve gathered, it happens to the best of us. The most important part is how you deal with it. In those low times, you will naturally be more susceptible to temptations.

You’ve already taken a key step of noticing which shows Allah’s love and mercy. Alhamdulillah. The next thing is to identify where it all went wrong. When did you start feeling this way? What happened or what was happening around that time? When you meditate and dig deep, you will most likely find a link to a good deed you stopped or reduced or something wrong you did or started doing. If it’s something good you stopped, that’s really straightforward, pick up the pace, read Quran more to soften your heart. If it’s something you’ve done wrong or are currently doing, ask Allah’s forgiveness and stop the deed. It could be a number of things; even acts we think are very little but we don’t realise is that a little bit here and little bit there accumulate a lot of rust on our hearts. The Prophet (SAW) says as reported by Abu Huraira: “Verily, when the servant commits a sin a black spot appears upon his heart. If he abandons the sin, seeks forgiveness, and repents, then his heart will be polished. If he returns to the sin, the blackness will be increased until it overcomes his heart. It is the covering that Allah has mentioned: No, but on their hearts is a covering because of what they have earned.” (83:14)

The goal is to fix that low and get back on the horse. Don’t focus on the low you are feeling at that time so Shaytan does not drag you down. Remember Allah has told us His mercy supersedes His punishment. Do NOT lose hope in the mercy or Allah.  Increase Iman strengthening acts –

  • Recite, read and ponder over the Quran
  • Increase your tahajjud
  • Increase you sadaqah
  • Talk less; internalise and ponder more
  • Listen to lectures
  • Increase your interaction with Muslims who have goals similar to yours {this is not an exhaustive list}

May Allah guide us to the straight path, forgive our errors and accept us on the day of Qiyam.

Barakallahu lee wa lakum

السَّلاَمُ عَلَيْكُمْ وَرَحْمَةُ اللهِ وَبَرَكَاتُهُ    


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